When forever becomes a place

When forever ceases to be just a word 

When it ceases to be just a measurement of time

But instead become a place where soul mates can dance to the song in their hearts

That is a reflection of true love...

16th March 2014

today, the sky and my eyes were raining together....

my mom

she is a very strong woman i ever met in my life

also, hardworking is her strong point

she seldom take leave, and never ever being late to work

besides, she wake up damn early in the every morning to cook for us to bring lunch 

now, her health is getting weak

always decline heart pain but reluctant to consult cardiologist

after CNY going to operate uterus, some spoiled cells is inside, getting to remove all

doctor suspected she got hepetitis C

i wish, i pray, i hope she everything will be alright

i thought she was a very healthy and strong woman when i was a kid

but now i realized, i realized i was wrong

the fact is everyone of us will grow old, 

and getting through sickness while growing old

she is just an ordinary person as others

what i never expect heart pain, liver problem, cervical problem will be happen on her

she is getting through all of these.

im so scared of losing her

im really really scared

i pray for her every night before fall asleep

i pray for her no more others sickness come to her

and im praying everything she will be alright and stay healthy.

i love her.

long vacation in December 2013

this is the 2nd year im enjoying long vacation at year end..
i bet must be a lot of people envy of which company im working at..
yes..indeed. many benefits out there..
but im not happy where am i working, i dislike my work...
how i wish i'll find my happiness in my working for the New Year wish!!
i got Lemon Yogurt Cream Cake as my birthday cake for this year,
also, a big brown big handbag present from my lovely darling...
thanks him for everything what he has done for me..
i love him so much and so much....
~love~

後悔

我非常非常後悔自己說過的話，問了又再問，彼此都不說話的那短短20分鐘真的讓我覺得很恐怖。希望這種情形不會再發生了。

13th September 2013

觉得最近的他好像不大喜欢跟我说那么多了
只是问他个对他来说是那么容易解释的东西
他都不愿多说，叫我自己去找 google
总是在最后一分钟或过了才告述我隔天或刚在他要做什么
他生意上的进展是如何了，我都不敢多问了。
情侣间的关系不是应该快乐或不开心都会想要第一时间跟对方分享彼此当下的感受吗？为什么他什么都不告述我呢？不跟我一起分享他的感受呢？难道他认为我无法协助或安慰到他，所以不想浪费他宝贵的时间打信息或给我电话呢？
时间，真的有一股很强的威力；它能够让人改变。
不知从何时开始，我不再敢主动给他电话问他近况了
不敢给他电话渐渐成了我的习惯
每当拿起电话想打给他总是害怕会打扰到他
每次都会不知不觉有那个想法出来：
“万一打扰到他了怎么办？”
最后还是把电话放下来了。
我真的很想让他知道，我有多么的关心他
知道他很忙，知道他有不开心的事烦
很想让他知道我不介意当他的倾诉者或聆听者
也不会烦到我，每次他需要我时，他都能找得到我。

22 August 2013

This was a wonderful Friday.
First time I had Carls' Junior fast food, it's was very very nice.
the best fast food that I ever had, nice nice nice.....
I think maybe he was beside me, we were having it together.
No matter where we are, what we eat, as long as he is beside me,
that's the most wonderful memories in my life~