Aloha 2013

Year by year,
We went through a lots,
We grew up, we changed,
A new year is coming tomorrow,
How would the 2013 will be ?
What will be going on around us ?
I'm curious, I'm looking forward...
I don't want to sit around and hope good things will happen;
I wanna make them happen... ... ....
Turn the face to the sun and the shadow will fall behind.
Aloha 2013,
Say Happy New Year to everyone,
Wish my love one have a great blast in a new starting year,
May the great hope would create the strongest to my love one.
" Don't confuse your path with your destination,
  Just because it's stormy now, doesn't mean
  you are not headed for the sunshine."             Unknown

Love Lane ; 爱情巷

都忘了上一次的槟城之旅情景了，
有些记忆就算再记得也是没意义的，
忘了它们也无所谓。。。。。。。

久违的槟城，好久不见了，
原以为不知要等到几时才能再次到访，
尽然还有3天就2013年，
我们再次踏上这片土地。。。
第一次体验到那些背包旅客所住的旅馆，
不管大家来自哪个国家，
不管是什么种族，讲什么语言，
每个人的背包里都装着各自的背后故事，
包括我们。。。。
这次的小旅程好像逃离了现实生活，
让我的脑里完全忘了所有在生活中的烦恼，
能够过着这无忧无虑的这两天，心满意足了。
当下我们的感受；我们所留下的足迹；
这一次，我一定不会把我们的回忆给忘掉的。。。

 

不管相机是否名贵，
只要摄影师用真心的拍每个人，事，物
每张照片都会有它的故事。

       一步一脚印的一起走过每个地方，
                一起累了，一起打瞌睡，
          那段路与回忆；永远铭记在心！

Merry Christmas

Every year same as every year...
Same decoration in everywhere...
Same songs are playing...
Same wishes to everyone...
Right now; right here; same...
Best wishes to everyone,
May all of them be blessed with all things bright and beautiful
Joy & Peace on earth, good will to them...

Stay joyful with love one in Anytime & Anywhere...
=GOD Bless=

永远，有多远？

此刻是最开心的；
当下真感受到的辛福；
明年，几年后，以后的他们；
未来的他们，会怎样呢？
他的右手会依然牵着她的左手吗？
“两个人十指紧扣是一种比诺言更坚定的承诺”
他们会牵着彼此一直到苍老吗？
永远，有多远？

16th Dec 2012 ; Genting Highlands

Just came back from Genting Highlands...
Kinda tired and sleepy right now...
But still feeling thousands of reluctant to go on the bed....wondering....
Has been kinda some period never update status here...
There are kinda lots stories and happened I would like to tell here...
Please allow myself will type on it when i'm totally in free when on 10 days holidays...
Feeling for today :
Heart warming during at cooling place + Happy ..............

04 Dec 2012

一直以为自己已经做得很好了
原来不是的
一直认为只要埋头努力着
别人就一定能感受得到
原来不是的
还以为每个人都会觉得社会很现实
所以就会对彼此人与人比较善好
原来不是的
是现实社会太复杂呢
还是想得太简单了呢
一直对别人的信任
却换来的是陷害对待
只能怪自己太笨了。。。
学懂了
在现实社会里不该对任何人存有信任
是对还是错呢 ???

~Favorite~

There are so much variety of choices...
Their taste might be much more better than it...
But for me, there is the only one type I would take it...
Wondering why...couldn't explain it as well...
That is the only one I like, I love, I drink...
That is the only one I'll feeling better after
Yes, that is it...GREEN TEA LATTE

Sunday <HATE>

hate today
What's wrong with her
Hate every Sunday.........

Love U U

很久以前有一个渔夫,爱上了一个女孩，
而那女孩总是把心藏在海底。
渔夫怎样都打捞不到，
只好把自己变成一位厨师，
他试着把女孩的心做成一道道甜点~
希望当女孩试着他做的甜点时，能感受到他的心
希望。。可以打动她的心 =)~~
=GOD Bless=

四葉

四葉のクローバーを見つけるために、
三つ葉のクローバーを踏みにじってはいけない。
幸せはそんな風に探すもんじゃない。
だが四葉のクローバーはクローバーが若葉の時に出来た傷から四葉になるため
踏みにじって探す者がいなければ四葉のクローバーは生まれてこない。

しあわせなんてそんなもの。

3天的了解

段段几天的旅程
让我感受到了真正的他
同时也让我大概知道了他家人
在那几天里，
感受到他的不爽
他的累
他的开心
喜欢看着他享受着在拍照的背影
只想记得他开心的时候
希望这次的旅程能够对彼此更加的了解
希望能够增进彼此的感情

Singapore Trip 2012

Day 1 @ UNIVERSAL STUDIOS SINGAPORE

26/10/2012 - USS - Day 1
1st time having trip with Family Yong
1st time travelling to Singapore by taking KTM, thanks GOD i was flu that nite, so that i could sleep for at least 4 hours
1st time staying at his Auntie's House saw their Miko, makes me thought of Puffy
1st time sleeping with his parents in a room, makes me thought of when i was a child sleeping with dad and mom's scene
-LOVES-
=GOD Bless=

Day 2 @ For the Singapore Trip 2012

27/10/2012 - Marina Bay - Day 2
After done Shopping at Chinatown and H&M, was taking bus to Marina Bay.
The new built huge and real pretty flowers at the Garden there.
Nice scene; Nice environment; Nice place; Nice Nice Flowers lots...
Was kinda dissapointed as the lights during at nite time was not in my expectation bright enough
Kinda tiring day, was a long walking day.....
-LOVES-
=GOD Bless=
 

Day 3 @ Say Goodbye to Singapore


28/10/2012 - Day 3 - Last Day
Morning did the legs massage;
1st time experience again, what a comfortable my legs finally^^
Is time to go, was rushing to airport and get into C13 Gate, thanks GOD we made it.
Safely landing in Malaysia finally..
<Thanks Family Yong for eveything in this trip>
-LOVES-
p/s - 1st time taking his photo like this pose when he is holding his "baobei" camera.
getting some ideas in my mind right now, hopefully i could make it in one day....^_^

 

Rainy days

The rain is kissing the roof
Windows are wet by drips of rain
Raining recently,
It reminds Key that its end of year soon
We all are growing up year by year
No matter how's the rain heavy is
And the raining always will be
We gotta overcome it for every each time
Key is looking forward the Lovely Sunny Day

谎言

是善意的谎言吗？
一点都不像。
为甚么要说慌呢？
可以说实话啊，
要对我说谎话；
我宁可你不要对我说任何的话。

SUPPORT !!!

I promised will seriously think about it,
means that I really will...
We are always making decision all the time in our life
We have the rights to choose for our own
But sometimes we are in dilemma of decision making
Please let me say it once again and again
Kwan, Iris, Pei Yee....
"THANK YOU gals, Thanks for supporting Key"

今晚
躺下来了，还是睡不着
不懂该如何把自己的心情打成文字
不懂该怎样把自己的心想表现出来
很想跟大家说声
＂不好意思，我迟到了＂
是天气冷？为甚么总觉得冰冷冷的？
希望真的是纯碎天气冷而已
很想说
我只不过是想要了解你更多而已
不想对你的事情一概不懂
我还是你的诉苦聊天对象吗？
希望你会说
＂一直都是；永远都是＂

跌倒了

从小就常听；
在哪里跌倒就在哪里再站起来。
在跑道上跌下受伤，
就站起来从新再跑过。
总会到终点的。。。
可是，在现实生活中也能够如此吗？

Love Love Sea Sand Sun

I wish  I could belong to such peaceful sands, sea, the sun
Enjoying the sea breeze, getting the sun tan, slowly riding bicycle around the sand
Thousand million feelings reluctant for getting back to real life,
Gotta wish again, gotta imagine again in everyday,
Wishing am staying such pretty & peaceful sands,
Island, sands, sea, sun.....will be engraved in mind always.
As a motivation; no matter wat negative happens,
Think of the deep huge sea, sand, and sun, will make self much more better.
 



父亲

有个记忆一直在脑海很深刻的绝不会忘记
天还没亮却下大雨的那一天
我背着沉重的书包
穿着刚洗洁白的校鞋
他背我在他肩膀上
又帮我背哪沉重的书包
一步又一步慢慢的越过马路
最近父亲的肩膀越来越瘦了
很想在他肩膀为他按摩
我该怎样打破我们的沉默呢？

父亲曾经牵住我的小手学步，
我跌跌撞撞的踏出一小步，
或许我们两都一起笑眯了眼，
这些纯美的记忆；我回想不起来，
但我很肯定,
它一定还暖着父亲的掌心.....

Kuantan & Kemaman

Key love love outgoing.....
Have the chance go out from the city,
I should be happy ; and looking forward to that
This is not the 1st time go for outstation
But this time i hv the complicated feeling of  thousand millions NOT WILLING to go for it
Self wondering as well...
Self know that will never be long staying current company
Sorry to say that i can foresee i'll be leaving in one day, or might be soon
Feel sorry to still paying expectation on me
Feel sorry and guilty that for every everythings

健康

之前每天工作时，常告诉病人该如何照顾好身体；
但我却忘了自己所说过的话，忽略了自己的健康。
让身边的人担心了。。。
很庆兴，暂时健康还没去到最恶化的情况，

为什么人类一定要吃才能维持生命呢？
那些缺乏食物的他们；
他们习惯了饿？还是习惯了饿痛呢？
他们的健康还好吗？
真的不敢再想下去了。。。
纪凯娴，比他们真的幸运很多很多。。。
*珍惜当下；别无他求*

想一千次；不如踏出去做一次。
华丽的跌倒；胜过无谓的徘徊。

月圆人团圆

中秋节快到，气氛是怎样的呢？
每个家庭都弄月饼吃，拜神的吗？
才发现小时候提灯笼，玩蜡烛的回忆好像渐渐淡忘了。。
年纪越大；烦恼越多
真的很不想长大，想一直永远逗留在哪小乡村的日子。。




Thanks Aunty Yong's mooncake self handmade





 

Better Me

Persistence

Not to give up too soon;
The solution is probably right in front of me.

眼里的小瀑布又不自觉开始流动了
讨厌它们，怪自己不够冷血
所以它们才放肆的又出现
想念着某个人真的很辛苦。。。。

Unspeechable

Wats wrong with her recently ??
There are too many thinking on her mind....
There are too many depress with her....
There are too many inside her, she don know who should turn to even though she would like to spilt it out ??
Family ?? Friends ?? Lover ??
Listed out but still hanging in mind who should call up when holding the phone....
Suddenly........it just all of a sudden;
All bunch of problems seemed like prop out together in one shot time...
Going to collapse....haiz...
Besides blogging here, please guide her wat should do....
Peaceful praying in the nitex before sleep; she is simple, she just wanna simplicity always....

Step Up

Our own self intuition is very important;

The more often we listen to it, the more often we will hear it and the more accurately it will guide us.

It is just simple ; Just BELIEVE IT .  

 

Simplicity Always.......^^

Stressful exam ended finally.
I know there are mistakes..try not to recall back what i wrote on the paper.
Gonna back to work soon, 5 more working days to go...
Looking forward for few days holidays to destress down it..
Wish it will be helpful much..
Trying to remove everything unessential annoying in my life..

Paring down to essentials frees up energy and brings simplicity that are necessary for happiness.

有个人可以看穿我的逞强，可以保护我的脆弱；

他会在我掉泪时，用大大的手捂住我的眼睛；

他会在我受到委屈时，让我的头靠在他的肩旁；

告诉我，在他面前，不需要假装坚强。

 

Ganbare masu

明天就是了，倒数还有一天；
这一次特别的非常非常紧张；带点害怕，担心。。。
万一不及格该怎么办？
万一只刚刚好及格又怎么办？
该继续吗？这个问题问了自己有5个月了，
还没给纪凯娴明确的答案，这女生到底想怎样？？
该读的都读了，该背的都背了，
书本从第一课到最后一课，翻了又翻了无数篇，
该做的都做了，都准备好要为明天做到最好。。
希望明天不会紧张到都把它们给忘完了。。。

背着轻便的背包到处走。。
没有目的的就一直走着，
走着；看着。。
很久都没被下午的猛烈太阳照射了，
享受着那猛烈的太阳，真的很想一次过把皮肤再黝黑点。。
在那里，有它-Puffy- 还没到门口就好像闻到了自己的味道，
总是很快摇着尾巴，冲出来朴上大腿上；
抛开所有的烦恼，抱着它睡着了，
没恶梦的侵入真的很舒服了。。

Tears Can't Hide

27th July 2012

Thought can hide it till the end;
But it stil not strong enough to stand on it.
He's seen that finally.
How many days, how many hours, and how many mileage that has been went through,
Did not know, and do not want to count on it, it just was the long way ago...

Cherish today,
Appreciate now;
Who knows tomorrow and accident which one will come first..

Speak to Mr.Ke

19th July 2012
Im sure that what i saw that was so real;
You said there are no more kind person inside me..
Myb that is yes, but to him; it was apparently his real color showed....
You said we shouldn't judge people just like that, but have u thought about that, if he was really panic and nervous what was happened to him, the first thing he gonna to do suppose is report to police to get help, instead of chatting relaxing with smiling and laughing with u out there.....???!!!! have u thought about that, he has some housemates, if there were something negative matters hapenned, he suppose should call his friend immediately instead of refuse to call police and chatting with u so long...??!!
Myb u think that i have black shadow since experienced met couple of times from being snatched, so i won't easily trust any whoever of strangers..but im really do not understand him why he would refused to call police or call any of his friends to get help if he was really panic of wat happened to his house.......if he has at least one reasonable explanation, i would change my thinking to him...
I understand you won't trust someone who has black shadow....You might be thought that, that is all her imagination of think too much..I can swear that, that time i never think too much of that, what i saw is really damn REAL.....
不相信亲人没关系；
但当我们不在你身边时；
请别轻易相信陌生人说的话。

Love Love Summer

张开双臂等待着；
年纪增长也是件蛮棒的事，
不扭曲；不受诱惑；没有什么不对。
即使有些害怕；即使未来不明确，
依然不放弃；也不后悔，
我要因为我很努力，
所以属于我的夏天一定会来。

Say Congratulation to HYKH ^.^ 2012

经历过了在航海工作的日子；
体验过了要凌晨就起床去上班的日子；
接下来在 Allo Paris 的日子该比较开心吧。。我猜，我想，我觉得，很不舍得离开吧，会很想念那里的所有所有吧；
太厉害了；
还没到半年就被升职了。。
恭喜恭喜恭喜恭喜 ^_^ :)
目前的看似一片明亮，可是层重的责任，无形的压力慢慢浮现了 ；
地位越高，责任感就越厚，渐渐的就会想要把每件事做得超过100分，
慢慢的，自造的压力也跟着出来了。。。
<累；身心；体力；脑力；都是‘累’了>
要比“压力”更强壮；不要被它们打败。。。
要多休息，要多小心；不要累坏；
财富并不重要；
反而如果失去了健康，拥有再多的财富也没意义了。。。

为工作加油
为生活加油
为健康加油
“持持啊啊思思”
Ganbateh Kudasai , dozo o-genki de!!! ^.^



Say Congratulation in 2012

挨了这么多年，
一直坚持着自己的信念这么久，
花了应该有超过20多年的时间吧。。
在这一年；
您终于如愿以偿，
做到了尊孔国民型中学的校长了^_^
恭喜恭喜恭喜
想起了很多您教书教我们数学课的回忆。。。
您教书那个 “逼刺” 的样子是忘不了的，哈哈哈！
如果不是怕看到那个样子，也不会逼我们考到好成绩。
你常对我们说不要因为自己不是独中生而自卑，
感谢您一直以来对尊孔国中那么的坚持。。。

2007年毕业典礼那天，你主动叫我跟你来张的合照。
最有纪念价值的中学照片^^

他的愿望

他的第1个愿望  ：让奶奶不再干活了！
他的第2个愿望  ：让爸爸有不漏雨的房子住！
他的第3个愿望  ：每天有白米饭吃！......
至于读不读书，吃不吃糖已经不重要了！
因为那些愿望距离他还很遥远 !!!

The True Feeling @ Deepest Secret

Extreamly an unexpected night tonight...Never thought that I will just voiced it out all those feeling that have been hidden long long time inside my deepest by this way and by this night like that...
Never thought that all those speeches that have been practicing long long time inside my deepest will just voiced out verbally without blogging...
All those questions;
Should I ? or shouldn't I to voice out ?
What will it be if just non-stop keep quiet?
What will it be if just keep on asking or just confess how am I feeling?
How to begin the sentenses if gonna to choose the 2nd one?
There were too many questions and wondering hidden inside...
But all these just found the solution; TOGETHER : Let's Solve it Together..
all those wondering just like met their the answer and explanation by tonite...
Those feeling doubt, uncertainty, sadness just be solved it out finally....
Just like a magic nite, it made my feeling and my soul feel comfortable right now..
藏起来的时候，有时真的被它压得连呼吸都觉得心在抽痛。
终于说出来了，那沉重的某某终于减轻它的重量了。

No need to self talking again...
No need to self thinking again...
No need to think so much again...
No need to face it alone again...
Key is not alone;
There must will be someone together with Key solve out those problems..

I think;
Sadness tears is getting decrease right now....
Hapiness tears is getting increase  non-stop right now ... :_)
I think so...
I hope so...

傻瓜

和我一样你也在想我吗?
海角天涯, 一直到青春变成白发
我只希望你 只希望你。。。 。。。 。。。
=GOD Bless=

下一站.... ....

每个人从出世就好像去过了很多站，
在轨道上等待着要去达到他的下一站，
一直都在害怕着下一站，
好像越来越怕。。。。。。
很怕还没进到里面，就从轨道上掉下来了。。。
一定要保持坚定；
一定要坚持；
一定要相信；
每个站都必定会到达的，
只是当到达时，就要勇敢的面对那将会是怎样的地方，
要相信只要到终站时；
总会有个人等待着，
天亮的时候，一定会有曙光的。
That nothing costs as little and is worth as much as a smile.

Relax, let yourself smile, and see the light come back to you tenfold.

 

 

坏消息 2012

一个月前大家都为那小小生命开心，
大家都期待着；欢迎着他的降临，
可是，
是没缘份吗 ？还是老天给的考验？
为什么他那么的不坚强？
说一声肚子痛，就这样离开了妈妈的肚子，
就这样离开她，让她伤心了。。。
身体受伤了；身心更伤的她；
不敢告诉任何人的她，一定很无助。
她问：给了她，为什么又要拿回呢？！
希望她比任何人都要坚强。。。

People are always judging each other and,

the truth is, they're not very good at it.

Don't put a lot of concern into what people think of you.

You weren't created to please and entertain everyone.

You were created to be you,

so feel good about yourself.

That it doesn't matter what everyone else thinks....

 

奶茶 + 蛋挞

好回味的一个塔配
虽然很简单，很便宜；
但对我来说
外面再高贵的食物，都没一个能取代
一口奶茶；一口蛋挞
每次看到这样的摆放，
想起了小时候很多的回忆，
想起了她。。。
下个星期就是她的忌日
永远永远都不会忘记她
永远永远都不会忘记当时我生病痛苦，她抓紧我的小手，努力为我擦汗的那个感觉
虽然生病很辛苦，她也离开我们 6 年了；
很想在生病蒙蒙懂懂的时候，能够再次感受她。。。

一定要假装没看到
一定要假装不知道
一定要假装没看到
一定要假装不知道
一定要当自己不会字
为什么为什么为什么
为什么为什么为什么
我知道自己真的有太多缺点了
永远都比不上人家
一定是自己想太多了
一定是酱的
一定是酱的
一定是酱的
什么都没看到
什么都不知道

5th June 2011

Wondering this is typing a story or diary, but somehow juz would like to type and post it to this secret land here....
HE and SHE were getting know each other by 9th June 2008, he was sitting behind of her..Then the story started...He might be have forgotten how's the first day and first time they met, but she does remember it....What a coincidence! 6220 is the coincidence number for them. She noticed that since that time.......
座位前，座位后... ... ...
就这样相遇，相见，相识

They were both 18 years old that time. Same grouping of friends were always stay together including them, they went for class together, went for lunch together, gossip together, lough together, always kidding among each other, that was the most happy and joyful time for her as there was him along...
He will always called her for that time, he was so concern about her, she still remember that,there was a day she felt upset after class,she didn't tell anyone,but he realized it, he kept asking what happened, at last she never let anyone know bout it, but she's so glad that there was a someone been attend to her, and that's him. Has he been crushed on her that time? She was so wondering till now, she was not dare to think about it, and she was not dare to ask about it.....Their friends start gossiping about them, friends said " yes, he is actually " to her. but she was not dare to believe it that will be happen on her.......
如果这个世界真的有幸运，她得到的那只是侥幸而已

Have forgotten since when and why they are getting damn seldom to contact each other eventhough they are sometime in a same class together. When she always thought of this part, she will fell upset and worried, all those negative feeling will appear in her mind. He started join another group of friends, he started went for lunch, gossip, lough, always kidding among each other with other group of them, and very super seldom join her back, she knew she couldn't do anything, so she was jux be quite and stayed back.......
自己安静的就好, 不准给任何人带来任何烦恼

She started realized that " yes, he is actually. " this sentence was jux bull shit, so she also stopped thinking and feel lucky that never pay high expectation within them by that time. After that, he had a girlfriend, this make her more confirmed that yes, that sentence was jux a bull shit, no need to take serious keep it, so she wishing them a good blast, and she was jux be quite and stayed back again.......but unfortunately, the relationship jux last for few weeks.....she could feel that he was sad at that time, but she's jux keep staying back..........
有时候沉默并不代表不知道，不关心，
刻意的表现出来只会让人觉得虚伪

He and She there was quite long of time never contact each other, then he and she met up again, the gang gathered up again for a performance, they had the discusison till the day of performance day since like they are getting back the beginning....The performance was created the best ever memories and it was an unforgettale memories for each other, or maybe some of them may have forgotten, but for her, that was so mean to her as there was him along.............
All of them is time to be mature, is time to reach their dream, he was going to be on board, before he leave, he and she hanged out for as farewell to him, both were enjoy and had a fun time for that. When is time to say goodbye, he and she suddenly like having a weird feeling. It was raining on that day.
 一场烈日，然后一场大雨，
忽然一个尴尬的眼神，一种奇怪的感觉降临

He went for on board and he started frequently called her like the beginning, she's looked forword and will wait for his call jux like the beginning.... He's been ask her that, does she also having the weird feeling on that day? but she didn't admit it as she jux scared that herself will be getting the wrong feeling again.....
He came back finally. On 5th June 2011, he gave her a surprised that suddenly appear in front of her. She was all of shocked till forgot to say " welcome back " to him...Since from that day, she's thinking that, maybe he has confirmed that " yes, he is actually ". Finally this sentence have been confirmed.
确定 ?! 不确定 ?! 傻傻分不清楚

The day is coming..wondering does he still remember these day?! she just would like to wish both of them and say "Happy Anniversary" to them no matter he might be have forgotten or still remember it.......She can jux to be quietly jux do not want to disturb him....
两个人，即使一个忘了，
但至少还有一个记得他们的故事，那就够了

Since from the day they are started being together, she's praying everynight.
" Please give him and his family safety and healthy, please bless him a great blast in working, less sadness, but more happyness;
and please bless He and She now and forever, LOVE each other."
两个人十指紧扣是一种比诺言更坚定的承诺

每个人都渴望有一个地方，
添饱饥饿的胃，与疲惫的心。

Macaroon Taste

31 May 2012
Saw that a lot before, but never tried once
Heard that a lot before, but never tried once
Finally this day I tried for the first time..
lemon, earl grey, napoleon, passion fruit, mint, rose
I knew something new;
I knew wats the napoleon finally,
That is the most best taste..
It's making me miss the taste of napoleon & earl grey
It's making me will buy for that frequently..
Thanks for someone who made me know for that..
Thanks for that, I know finally the feeling when macaroon in the mouth..

Dont need to look over our shoulder all the time, waiting for the next crisis. We dont have to spend all the days hiding from the next ambush.
Live in the light;
Live in assurance & calm.

孤魂野鬼

黑色长头发
上半身白色
下半身黑色
没个人认识
一天从早到晚
自个儿到处流浪
身为孤魂野鬼，流浪的地方也有限制
它只能在后楼梯待，所以
后楼梯成了它的好朋友
有墙壁作伴
有扶手作支持
没人看到它，所以
更没人听得到它的心声，所以
绝对不会有人知道它的心声
=GOD Bless=

目的

6 年了，
真的很想知道，她到底去了哪里？
如果不是她，现在的我才是真正的没有目的。。
6 年前我曾说过，如果有一天我能够考到 JLPT，
一定会以一口最流利的日文去告诉她，
“watashi wa ima nihon go o hanaseru dekimashita"
很想让她知道，我学日文有一年了，
还有3 个月，我就完成 intermediate level 了，
不管再辛苦，我一定会让自己继续上 Advance level 。
很想让她知道，我为自己许下了承诺；
要让自己在今年挑战 JLPT试卷。。。
我从来都没忘记过自己早就曾在6 年前定过的目的，
只是原来当真正出来社会后，竞争比想象中还要强，
必须面对和多挑战的事实。。
很想像那时候，当我担心害怕未来事的时候，
她的声音，她的话，她的忠言，总是令我能恢复信心。
从来都不告诉任何人她的全名，因为她认为，
她的责任是给学生教好，全名是什么根本不重要。。
希望她知道，其实她成功了，
她成功让一个学生直到现在，还记得她说过的话，
还记得一定要坚持到底。。。
恩师----Ms.Goh

彩虹

雨过了。看到一道很长很闪的七色彩虹；
好就没看过彩虹了，觉得今天有点辛运能够看到它；
感觉就好像它好像在给我安慰，给我支持。。。
忽然，这首歌不断地出现在脑海里。。。
又想起了他们，心里一直有个疑问，
生存在世界某个角落的他们，
他们又看过彩虹吗 ？？？

身為一道彩虹　雨過了就該閃亮整片天空　讓我深愛的你感到光榮
身為一道彩虹　盡全力也要換你一段笑容　
夠了　我愛你　不必人懂
只要醒過來　這就不是夢　請看著我　請擁抱我　
體溫別溜走 好多話想說　好多事要做　
請天空給我　請時間給我　再多一點停留
=GOD Bless=

担心

07 May 2012
今早的我，
非常非常的担心，
心里担心得心脏好像快要爆了。
一直在想，
是不是发生什么不好的事了。。。
拼命的祈祷；千万不要发生不好的事，
千万千万不要不要。。。
谢天谢地，
原来只是虚惊一场。。。

付出

终于明白了，
三年前曾被一个人问过；
‘‘如果你爱一个人，你会怎样为他付出，会付出多少？”
当时的我，完全想不到该怎样答；
现在的我，如果再被人这样问，
我知道该怎样去回答了。。。 。。。

No one can see beyond the horizon of their own lives.

We are threads in the great tapestry of time.

Have faith. Every stitch has a reason.

 

Regret

All are just bull shit..
Bull shit to me...
Blufing me all the time...
Wasting my time...
Wasting my money...
And I...
Might be losing chances...
I keep my word to them..
But wat they all return back to me..
Just all bullshit returned to me...
Why am I so silly..
Why am I wanna keep my promise to them...
Silly............................
Regret.............................

3个星期的假期快要结束了，

要逼着对自己说：选择了它，就要相信它能给自己带来更远的路

是真的吗？如果选了自己喜欢的，就没路走了吗？

从交信的那一刻就一直在想，有选错吗？会后悔吗？

如果什么都不想，就直接去做想做的，会太任性吗？

知道有个人其实一直都在烦恼着很多东西，
很想给他安慰；他是不想令我烦恼呢？
还是他觉得反正我也帮不了，说了也没用呢？
最难受的是，
竟然不知道该用什么通道来给于安慰。。。

怀表

有个农夫打扫完马棚后，发现太太送的怀表不见了。他跑回马棚找，找不到。农夫就招来一群小孩帮忙，大家一起在马棚找啊找，还是没有找到。

一个小孩跟农夫说，他要自己一个人在去找一次。结果，那个小孩真的找到了怀表。农夫惊讶地问他是怎样找到的？

小孩说，“刚刚太多人一起找很吵。我自己进去静静地坐在地上，慢慢地就听到滴答滴答的声音，就找到怀表了。”

所以说，其实我们每个人内心都有个怀表。但是，我们永远都在忙，赶下一个专案，下一个报告。如果我们让忙碌占满心思，从不放空思想，怎么听得见我们心底的声音呢？.

Keep Thinking....

I've gone...
I've leaved...
My mind is so clear will never get back there...
But why am I still keep thinking...
Im keep thinking of them..
Im keep thinking of all those branula...
Im keep thinking of the situation n environment there..
Im keep thinking of all those medicines..
Im keep thinking of the pharmacy room..
Im just non-stop keep thinking...
Keep thinking all those that what i had learned n experience..
Im still keep thinking everything n what I've done to patient..
I remember;
How was I happy n excited while I got offred to be there..
Still remember;
That time i was all start from 0, im sure i can do it..
The outcome;
 Yes, I did it.

If the time can return back to when i was 18yrs old,
gimme one more chance to choose,
will I be choosing Nursing Course?!

Stop Stop Stop Stop!!!!
Hey u! KE KAI SHEN
STOP THINKING OF THAT
Look deepest, there is no future if still keep standing there
Look forward; Look forward
Look forward to your lifez....

Who Moved My Cheese?

站在人生的十字路口，
正好是思考新方向的大好时机。
By - Spencer Johnson, M.D -

突然想听它

诞生日 0421 2012

Happy Birthday:
May the best of everythings be him,
Today and in all the days ahead,
Even after that this post may be set to below,
Hope remember all the wishes and thoughts it hold inside.

Flying

Be insist of what u acctually want
Be tough of what u gonna be
Be smart when doing anything
Just Be yourself

When everyone around is concerning about
how far and how success you are;
At the other side,
There must will be someone behind is concerning about
how tired you are when u're flying.

When tired flying, juz have some break;
and believe that there must will be a someone.

Say Thank You

1 year ago, i was from zero. 1 year later now, basic medical knowledge and cardiologist was so familiar to me, never regret been working there before and thanks them so much so much and so much, ecspecially.......

IRIS LIM - the one who taught me most, without her, i would'nt get all those knowledge so fast.

KWAN - the one who taught me all those medicine and drugs, without her, i wont get the chance how to  prescribe drugs.

JANICE TAN PY - the one who always help me buy lunch, and always remind me that not doing the mistake.

YAMASHITA - the one who always helped me a lot when i was in busy.

DR. PREGA - the one who taught me all those cardiologist , without him, i wont know what is colonory angiogram till now.

DR. CHONG - the one who taught me how to look at those x-ray film and full lab prafile blood test

DR. SATIAH - without her, i wont know what is OGDS and Pap Smear till now.

DR. EGASHIRA - thanks him always been giving me advise when i felt down and felt lost

PIEK YEE - Thank her always concerned about my everything, treated me as her sister.

At last, thanks Dr.Soo anyways, i actually learned the most a lot knowledge was from him, and thanks him scoled me on that day, without his scolding, it wont made me so fast to make the decision for leaving, so that at other company's benefits must be much more better than HSC, The scolding was wake me up. Thanks......

成功与失败

改变一种行为不要拖到明天；
否则它会变成一个习惯。
拒绝一份诱惑不要拖到明天；
否则它会造成一种伤害。
捉住一次机会不要拖到明天；
否则失去它不会再来。

所具备的心态是积极，还是消极，
却往往造成巨大的差异；
就是成功与失败。

我想我知道该怎么做了。。。

拨水节

为什么一定要拨水？
要庆祝节日可以有很多方法啊。。。
为什么就只会想自己如何开心；而忽略了在世界上的某个角落；
他们却严重缺水用呢？
很讽刺；
缺水用的人们在世界的某个角落，他们珍惜每一滴水的由来，他们不敢也绝对不会浪费每一滴珍贵的水，在干旱地方的他们，很辛苦由雨水存回来的水，珍惜如命。。。。
相反的，在某个国家多年来竟然用拨水来庆祝节日，为什么他们的人民都没有想过，其实在世界地球的另一边，有些地方是严重缺水的呢？
地球上的人类，有人想过这个问题吗？？

犯错 ？！

又有报导在印尼发生了地震；
看到有个妇女身旁有两个小孩，
她问苍天“ 2004年时已夺走了丈夫和一个孩子，能不能别再拿走她剩下的亲人呢？”
她再问“ 他们到底犯了什么大罪，而需要接受这种惩罚”
或许他们真的没做错什么大事，犯错的是大众人类。。。
大众人类犯了最错的就是‘自私’。。。
自私的想法
自私的行为
人类们到底清醒了吗？
他们到底意识到了吗？
他们只会怨天怨地。。
到底要到何时人类才会醒悟何谓 “珍惜” 呢？
或许要到天崩地裂时，人类们才会醒悟，什么才是最重要的，
到时一切都太晚了。。。

如果上天真的要用天灾来惩罚人类，
只望祈求它千望别伤及无辜。。。。

I Miss............

Miss so much so much and so much........
Every morning when i wake up....
Every night before i sleep......
Every single day....
Every moment.....
Same feeling........
Same thinking......
I just MISS so much so much and so much..........

Farm House Milk

09 April 2012
Seemed have been long time din't drink milk ady...
Forgot when is the last time drink my favourite milk...
Hungry Hungry Hungry..
Thanks Yamashita gave me his "farm house milk''...
The jux only a cup of milk made me remembered that,
milk always used to my saver when i've always been starving...
Im thinking...
It's time to stock in milk in fridge now....

阴影

又是同一个弯道
同样的时间
同样的雨量
同样的；只有我一个人...
很怕，很怕，很怕
就是只有怕
要谢谢他给过我一个铃响
只有紧握着它走在路上
至少让我感到还有那一点点的安全感。。。

Souvenir From Macau

Key Chain;
Its jux a simple souvenir..

"Key, come to nursing counter right now."
omg, am i did something wrong?!

"nahhh, for u...its jux a simple souvenir, hope u won't mind it"
Of course i wont mind about that.....

Recently so many people around me went for travelling, but she is the first person who remember and giving me the souvenir..she has been treating me well all the times and taught me how to inject hep B even though i hv no qualification to give people injection, For the first time and cox of her, i have the first time experience taking the inject stuff, and knowledge of injection..i wont forget the feeling and moment when i holding the injection needle forever...Thanks her been giving me the experience and knowledge. ~Nurse.Wan Siew Ping~

Lunch at "h@use"

05 April 2010
Never tot Mr.Yew who always stay inside cath lab will treat me lunch today.
Still remember the first day i steped into HSC at 14 Feb 2011, he is the first person who told me what is cath lab inside, i thought he was a doctor. I damn naive tat time asked him there is no different his job scope with a doctor, why he's not a surgery doctor..so funny when think back my question to him. i extreamly clear at all now...
I extreamly seldom saw him walk around except during his off work time by 1630, the whole nursing counter and imaging department, and can be said the whole world of HSC have known that im gonna leave soon. but Mr.Yew just knew it by last week..we both shocked.
I shocked is cox of he is a last person and when he got this news, i oni left 1 more week.
He shocked is cox that Im not look like will be leaving,  as im still always asking and learning the knowledge and skills.
The most that made me shocked is we even seldom see each other and chatting all the times, but he still insist wanna treat me a lunch, i insist said no need. but still, he ask Kwan to release me lunch with him, i don get used to people treat me for nothing..but he said i helped him before, but wat did i help him? i forgot or he jux bluff me? As i know is he taught me a lot more than i help him a lot.... haix..watsoever, jux let him.
Went to G Tower at H@use restaurant..seafood spagethy + Iced Lemon Tea..its jux a normal meal and normal tasted, but made my stomach full for whole day..Thanks him so much for the Lunch..

3 more weeks

from counting the months till counting the weeks,
im waiting & looking forward to counting the days left,
leaving there forever..
no need to show off the reluctant face,
hopefully will get a much more better job in my life.

少女的祈祷

祈求天地放过一双恋人
怕发生的永远别发生
从来未顺利遇上好景降临
如何能重拾信心
祈求天父做十分钟好人
赐我他的吻
如怜悯罪人
我爱主
同时亦爱一位世人
祈求沿途未变心
请给我护荫

TRUST

8th March 2012
Again...i saw something that i hate to see that..
i hate her..i dislike her actually....
im not happy and not comfartable when i saw her face..
i knew it, i knew that she been at his workplace..why??
having a lot of complicated feeling..how am i should describe it...
i hate myself when i log in to my blog...
cox i know that if when i post the blog that is regarding to her, then which means that the sme feeling that i hate coming back again...
i really dislike her appears...i really scared of her...
i wish..i hope..i pray...PLEASE PLEASE..don appear don appear..
i know i should be confidence to myself..should be trustful..
keep telling myself be tough, be confidence, be trustful..
but i lying to myself..actually i cant do that...
i really scared....
Please GOD that heard my voices and my praying....
PLEASE PLEASE.....
=GOD Bless=

New Hair Style

4th March 2012












~Say goodbye to my damn long hair~
~Say Hi to new hair style~

Smart Fighter

27 Feb 2012
Be a smart fighter;
Dont be a smart follower..
Listen to the soul;
Follow the heart feeling;
Have the own mind thinking...

No matter where you are right;
No matter what are you doing now;
No matter what's your opinion now;
Just follow it...

Fight for yourself;
Be a smart Fighter,
Dont be a smart follower.....                                      (said by Hanns to Key)

Dilemma

1st March 2012
Dr.June, Mrs.Soo, Mr.Raymond.....
trying to get me back for not leaving..are they hyprocritic? i dont know...
will they break the promise? i dont know...
offer me transfer to administratin, HR assistance, Receptionist...
are they wanna to save cost in stead of employ a new staff, better transfer me to be there?
i dont know...offering the job which is im looking for, but workplace still HSC...
How should i make this decision? accept it? just leave? wat should do?
thinking thinking thinking thnking...still thinking...BLANK.....BLOCK.....
~DILEMMA~
human always there are dilemma cases in the life,  that most important decisions are not to be made with the mind; they are to be made with the heart. So when there is an important decision to make, check in with how the feel, not how the thinking.   
* but, i Have listened to the mind thinking and heart feeling...still in the dilemma........

Decided

17 Feb 2012
Typing typing and typing...
finally, typing resignation letter..
Feeling bad that going to leave Kwan's team soon..
but no more choice, really cant accept and see his face anymore..
that is the best way to never meet him anymore...
hyprocritic, money greedy, sellfish person...
really hate him so much and so much...

Being scolded with no reason

16 Feb 2012
Nisha went out for lunch, replace to assist room No.6 for one hour. within the one hour still under controled. Then Nisha was back to assist him back. I get back to my own workplace, just after few minutes, he came to me just to scoled me because of there is no any assistance was outside his room, never listen to my explain, never give me chance to explain..he was just like a shooting gun keeping on shooting on me till i die by his scolded. Just cox of this reason, im the MOST BLUR, MOST STUPID, and the MOST USELESS among all who has been asisting him...in front of all...patients, doctors, staff, all saw that......my tears was like the glass that reflect with the light..........I HATE HIM
i hate him so much and so much....i won't curse him....if there is a day when all the staff resign, no one wanna work for him, everyone left behind him, i won't pity him that he has no friends...because i think when he alone still hugging his damn super million thousands, he will feel happy as well.........
never tot that i will so extreamly hate a person so much, he is the most hated man in my life...

snatched thief

06 Feb 2012
Public holiday still going for work...
After working, as usual using the same way for going back home...
For the 3rd times;
was raining as well..
suddenly a red Saga from behind heading to me and stopped..
one of them got off the car with holding a knife..
tried to approach me with knife..
Brain totally blank...
eyes totally blurred..
no way to run off..
what should i do...
OMG OMG OMG OMG...no more words besides that...
thanks GOD they never pull me inside into the car...
Please...
Please never let the incident happen on me again and again...

Nice patient and patient

10th Jan 2012
Bapa Tjandra Soegianto, follow up date should be in Feb..cox of his insurance matter, he purposely came early just to settle it..The insurance was actually has done last year..jux cox one of the column there shouldn't be filled by doctor..they bought the insurance in 2009, but bapa been post stent in 2007, doctor filled it the colomn said that having hyperlipidaemia and post stent in 2007...but in 2007 been post stent is the fact, it can't be changed, he and his wife keep begging me to change and remove it, i did my best to ask all the doctor whether can remove it, but its really can be changed and remove..i cant do anything for them, feel so sorry to them, his wife so disappointed , she said its okay, and gave me 2 boxes of indonesia cake, my guiltyness increases when she gave me, i felt that i shouldn't receive it cox i did not do anythg for them, and i can't help them..but they were damn nice person and again begged me to receive it...
* May God give them all the bless, and wish them stay healthy always *

i - Ctiy Shah Alam

7 Jan 2012
First time been to I-ci ty with Family Yong..After dinner 5 of us went to there for taking some shot...
i really think that is a harmony family, he was grown up in a harmony family..its really different with me..
Paid $25 for entering the snow house there, damn cold inside..felt regret was wearing slipper..me, hanns, and his sister was wearing slipper, our toes really felt like cold to numb...:P hahaha..
Its kinda a bit raining, but luckily just a while, then stopped..Thankx GOD..
After that,everyone seemed like hungry..went for supper at Murni..Mee Raja with him again, this time was Tom Yam flavour..but seemed the first time Mee Raja original more taste good...
All of them together sent me back home, felt so feeling sorry to his parents and sister..his dad looks tired ady...really really felt so so sorry to them on that night..
And wanna thanks them giving me the dinner, im really seldom having dinner with family member, thats why when dinner with them im actually like feeling...mm mm....by the way, Family Yong all of them are nice people..he is really a lucky guy who was born in the family...best wishes for them...

First movie of 2012

1st Jan 2012
First day of 2012..went to Mid Valley..
First movie of 2012 with him " The Darkest Hour "..
then shopping..shopped shopped and shopped...
At Gap shop, first black legging Jeans bought on the first day of 2012 with him; He bought a black shirt at the same shop..kinda memorable incident when doing payment for it, there was an auntie suddenly came to us said wanna join us for paying just to get more higher discount, at first, i thought the auntie wanna scoled us that we jumped queqe, cox her voice tone kinda a bit louder..:P..its good for us as well when she join us pay together, then we also can get the more higher discount becox of her 3rd item..hahaha...So lucky for that moment..heheheXx...
Then dinner, at first, we wanna eat Japanese cuicine, then said wanna try Taiwanese, then wanna pizza; but end up we went for Thai cuicine..not bad actually..quite yummy yummy..acceptable for me; like for it...
Its a good day, nice day, lovely day on 1st Jan 2012...