Friday, December 30, 2011

21周年母难日(1226 2011)

26 DECEMBER 2011

这一篇文章会打很长吗?都还不确定。。。
这一天是21 岁生日,永远都不会忘记的一年;这一天。
24号我们通话,他说会在JB 过一晚来不及回来给我庆祝生日,也不确定几点会回到来,我说不用紧,无所谓。。当时我一直追问自己,真的无所谓吗,我常想,庆祝生日根本就是不重要的事情。。。可是,当我一想到从他6月份回来到现在,他帮过很多很多的朋友过生日,甚至是她,也去过。。。当我一想到,为什么遍遍到我的时候,他尽然不能,我心有点抽痛。

Kessie 和JiaYi 约了我晚上吃饭,下午和ah See 逛街了就去和他们吃饭。。他突然简讯来问我要不要看戏?他说来不到跟我们晚餐,晚一点看电影就可以。。当天那么多人肯定看不成电影的,我也没拒绝,因为就想要见到他。。。一直都以为只有我们3个人在Zang Toi 吃,一直想象的情形都以为只有我们3个人,Kessie说要去Friday's,以为她只是开玩笑,可是她坚持就是要去那边,只好听他的好了。。去到Friday's 门口,等了不久,我转过身,他就在后面也到了。。。
“又骗我”第一句我看到他就是说这句。。。
他带着自己做的Fruit Cheese Cake, 从来没想过他会亲手做给我,也从来没想过他是在给我惊喜,原来他早就计划了的。。。好无言哦!!之前我的心还那么的抽痛~~
我们边吃边聊天了几个小时,大家为我唱生日歌,第一次那么多人看着我;第一次有人唱生日歌给我,我觉得对他们很不好意思,因为我不懂要给怎样的表情。。。
开心+吓倒+害羞+不好意思。。。
该时候回家了,回到家时,原来他还有买了礼物送我。。这也是我意外之中,很美,很漂亮,我很喜欢;可以我觉得一定很贵。。我又觉得不好意思了。。


非常非常谢谢他,谢谢她们,给了我这么好的回忆。。
要谢谢他为我做了那么多东西。。。
2011 年里给过我两次惊喜的他;6月5日 和 12月26日。。。

Friday, December 23, 2011

Sickness 2011

24th Dec 2011
Sick for 3 days non-stop..
Flu, cough, fever, stomachache...
medcine not effective for me at all...
myb too much medicine taken caused hands shaking...
wat should i do except sleeping...
suffering....

Dinner with Family Yong

18 Dec 2011
First time officially had a dinner with them, kinda nervous cox they are using chopstick for having dinner, which im totally not get used to it, jux worried about how they will think about me when they saw hows the way im holding chopstick..while i eat the " Tang Yuen" that made by his mom, i think of my mom on that moment..i miss her "Tang Yuen" so much so much...she used to made it every year when i was a small kid...then we start having the dinner, his mom said it juz a simple home made dishes; but for me...OMG.. vegetable, prawns, baked fish, soup,  seafood vegetable...if for my family, all these dishes can be taken for 1 week to us...my was stomach super full...nice dishes and thank them for giving me a nice and full dinner..
Gochisosama deshita~

Saturday, December 17, 2011

New class + Mission Impossible movie

15 Dec 2011
Will be gonna new class tonite; new classmates; new lecturer; new text book...
have to gonna to be get used to them start from 0..
i miss my previous lecturer so much, takahashi sensei;
miss my previous classmate so much, Leong san, Mun Yee san, Karen san, Kelly san..
i have to find out a way that i can go through for this level Intermediate 2..
i have to be more working hard on it..it seemed like im giving myself pressure..OMG!
After class, movie MI3 section with him, along with Big Show, Ah Fai, and wenjing...
why am i suddenly stop typing?!
why am i suddenly wondering wat gonna to type when reach this part?!
Should i type this out my feeling or jux burried it into my deep heart...?!
Stopped few minutes again....................

*my decision is jux burried it*

JiaYi's Birthday Celebration

10 Dec 2011
Sing K Section at Neway Times Square for JiaYi's Bday celebration...
the last time sing K with Jiayi and Kessie was at 19 Jan 2011..
i extreamly miss them so much...
i definately know myself that when i hanging up with Kessie's that gang, the smiling and laughing of mine to them are 100% true...so enjoy it when hangging up with them..
So happy that JiaYi likes the handbag that i choose...
After we sing couple of hours, all of us started tired..then we started took photos and playing games;
Again again..i thought again..one more chance we can take some more photos again, jux with him...
but this time, more worst, only one photo, one one shoot we got....
*although photos of click!on us not much; but it makes me cherish it much*


Malaca + PD short trip 2011

08 Dec 2011 - 09 Dec 2011
8th 10:30am from started our trip to Malaca;
Lunch was chicken rice, Durian cendul, and Malaca famous Ice Kacang..
Both also was very nice to me....all was sedap sedap ~
i was actually looking forward for going with him long time ago ady, although it was just a simple and short trip..
Again..i thought i again had the chance will be gonna have a lot a lot and a lot of shooting with him...
but again...kinda a bit diasapointing...
our shooting of us..jux him and I was extreamly little little little and little...
The most memorable incident was during sunset, we were on the way looking for food for dinner time...
that was sunset period, through driven, we passed by the beach, and the sunset was following us..
at that time, i felt very nice view, the sea was shinning from the sunset light..that's my favourite view actually...i really hope that i can hv some shooting with him on the beach with the shinning sea and the sunset at behind...but i never let him know my thinking~
We keep saying that it was jux a sunset..we have seen it everyday last time when i was at Langkawi, its okay, no need to see it now..nevermind, not so desperate to see it, jux go for dinner...
but acctually, i hope to see sunset with him on the beach so so so much~
But finally, we get back to chalet there to take a look the sunset, but the sunset seemed like disappear soon, luckily we still can be on time before it totally disappear...









*Eventhough photos of us not much, but the few photo makes me cherish much*

Iera's Birthday + Gathering

07 Dec 2011
Had a dinner with Iera, Mae, Cesca, and Hanns...
cox of Iera's Birthday so that we have the chance to meet up with them...
Dinner at Fish Manhatten Market (Pavillion), it was my 1st tine dine at there...
The taste was jux so so..not so extreamly delicious actually, but still can be acceptable~
After dinner, Iera's suggestion that was let's go out for some shooting...
In my mind and heart, i was super extreamly agree agree agree agreeable to her....
cox photos of jux with him are damn extreamly little little and little....
i was thinking that then i finally had the chance to take some shoot with him...
~Jux him and I~
but is quite kinda disapointed..
oni 4 photos we took...












Monday, November 28, 2011

人会流血过多而死;会流泪过多而脆落。。。
把眼泪流下一秒,只是流泪而以。。
把眼泪流下一分钟,就是哭泣了。。
能够用止血的方法来止眼泪吗???

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Practicing........

26/11/2011
movie Twilight at 1640...before the movie, after having lunch, shoped at supermarket, thanks for him taught me a lot about food and drinks....from his telling about food's topic, i can strongly feel the soul...that's his world~
been told he will go for S'pore 1 month for working, so called ''helping frend for opening''...suddenly can strongly feel that that is jux a temporarily ''1 month''?!, who knows it might be continue till the end~
it's good for us actually, saying jux leave for 1 month, its a quite a best way for us to practice saying a long GoodBye~
Since very early have already prepared myself there must be one day in the future or presently he will be working in overseas, this time, as a chance for giving self that practice when saying "GoodBye" to him, my tears wont appears in front of him cox only for "1 month"......so that when nex time we saying Goodbye again, tears will be more stronger and tougher....
Feel so proud of him, and kinda envy of him as well...he has dreams..he has his goal..he has vision, and gate...he knows wat and where and how for heading to achieve it....but i.....seem so different with him....

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Ganbate kudasai !!!

is getting harder and harder...
is getting more and more have to memorize it...
is getting more and more complicated...
i hv to be more tougher and tougher...
since last year of today the convocation(191110), i hv started to think about my future..
actually before my convocation, during the 2.5years spending at college have started to plan how's my way should be going, i imagined how's my future is...
since start working at HSC (140210), feel like to reach the future that i want is more far, is not easy to reach the future that i want..sometimes, feel like jux can be done in my dream, not in reality...
always thinking, am i did the wrong decision of deciding working there?! but i know, since from 140210 until today, my medical knoledge was from nothing, and now, i can be able using my knowledge to let people knows about healthy, i appreciated it..
decided to working there is due to the woking hours, its convenient to attend japanese class..i worried im going to forget what is my main reason of learning japanese..
im thinking after i learned japanese, where am i wil be going..
OMG, i almost forget my lifex goals..suddenly, i miss Ms.Linda now..
dreams?? $$$$ ?? freedom ?? interested ??
which one is the most important ?? confused.........
Wakarimasen...

Iris Wedding Dinner_191111

was a bit raining on that nitez, but still wont influence guests coming...
she told me she folded herself all of the 400 pieces souvenirs till mid nitez..

Iris & Mr.Ong looked pretty and handsome on that nitez, they looked match, she told me she was not nervous actually, jux a bit looking forward to it.

Rainy, Kwan, Key, PeiYee, PuiMan happy to her that found her Mr.Right and he treats her really well.
~Wish Iris hapiness forever~
 


Sunday, November 06, 2011

~Family Yong~

05 November 2011
Family Yong were organizing a BBQ party just for randomly..and maybe his 3rd sister was back from Singapore..this is the 1st time I meet his family, i joined the party, and even stay overnight with his 3rd sis and 4th sis...couldn't believe that the way of meeting his family would be like this...
Family Yong were so talkative and cheerful, especially his 4th sis, 3rd sis kinda a bit quite..Auntie difinetely was so talkative, uncle's personality kinda same as my dad, sometimes quite, sometimes talkative...
my stomach was damn full for that nitex, it was so seldom for me eat so much on Saturday, i think my stomach must be couldn't get used to it situation...tats y there is a bit gastrik...hahaha :P
the nex day of morning, Hanns went out for working ady..pity him have to wake up in the damn early in the morning :( at 9am, we all start woke up, they said wanna bring me out for breakfast, OMG, it was sunday, i cant believe that im having a proper breakfast on Sunday..Thanks for Family Yong!!!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Macau & Hong Kong trip (14th - 19th Oct 2011)

jux came back from HK. 7 pax in a trip.
1st time family trip including grandmom and Anson Lee.
really too much to descript it, so i jux wanna have some brief only..
but i dont like HK people, they are rude, and unpolite so so so so...muchH....
in this trip, realised grandmom's memories is getting lower..
she has taken the hyoertension medicine in the morning, but in the afternoon she will ask us did she take the med on morning?/
i have told her where are we going, but in a short while she will ask again where is the place?/
Anson brought us a lots joyfull in this trip, being our camera man..helping us carrying luggage...
thanks for him..HK view and night view was really damn beautiful....
when helping Anson & Kai Yin taking photos, feel that they are so hapiness, cox they hv a lot of chances to take photos together at the beatiful views...
photos that only me and him...very rare...i think not even 5 photos that we have...
mom and dad...seemed like so happy and cheerful..
they said thay are not tired, still can continue to visit another place, in fact, we all were exhousted...
cox they are seldom gon on a trip, so i can feel that they are very precious every moments when being there..
when enjoying the sea bleeze at victoria, and enjoying the HK beautiful nitez view...
i really hope that can enjoy with him as well, so i keep training myself for taking the most nicer shot for that..
when seeing Anson & Kai Yin; mom & dad; grandmom & Kai shin...
i pray to GOD. hope that me and him will be gonna hava a chance for a trip in one day...

Moving out is the best ideas..

hate staying with family..
miss the moment when was staying at outside
such as NS at Pahang, Raub..internship at Langkawi..working at Kuching...
Really would rather staying alone at outside..
wat for so hardwoking helping them clean up when no ones is appreciates it..
it's okay if do not want to appreciate it, but why still been scolded for that...
where's the respect among each other..
5 people in a home, oni 1 person is taking care...
wat if everyone are oso not care about it, wat will this home would be...
like a begger's home; or will it like a rubbish factory...
are they lazy or sellfish?? really hard to descript it..
own stuff should be self tidy up it, why still need other people to do for her??
when someone is helping her, why still wanna scolded the person who are helping...
jux wanna all together having a comfortable and healthy living place, was that wrong??
because of they know that there will be someone will tidy up & clean up the WHOLE home,
they have this kind of thinking, so they can jux simply messy up all around as they like??
are they really treat me as a daughter and sister, as well as their free maid ?????
i don mind to do all the cleaning up for them...
i jux need giving me the appreaciation and respect.....

Saturday, October 08, 2011

Yozu Japanese Restaurant

06 October 2011. Had a dinner with Hanns at KLCC's Yozu Japanese Restaurant.
Since from the previous we date have been 3weeks never meet.
0610 this date wondering when will we gonna meet up again, i will be going to Hong Kong for 1 week..
im counting and counting, i jux would like to thankx GOD that at least we still gotta chance to date...

Sunday, September 25, 2011

又有报道在南非每几分钟又有几个小孩饿死了。
有的人为了买些吃的给他们的孩子去卖肾卖血,
结果自己也太虚落死了。
南非的小孩每个都瘦得只剩一层皮包骨,
面都可以看到骨的形状,
他们只剩下那双空洞的大眼睛,
有的人欲哭无泪;有的人把眼泪都哭干了。
在那里比较辛运的也只不过是一杯米一家几口吃,
米饭都留给孩子吃,父母只喝米水。
很自然的,他们肯定会缺乏营养或染上各种病患,
有的不是饿死,就是病死。

这么多年来,世界卫生组织不是一直都有在帮他们的吗
为什么情况从来没有减少,反而一直在增加呢
为什么上天不公平点,让每个人都有饱饭吃呢
= GOD Bless People =
The life of the individual has the own meaning, only as so far as it aids in making the life of every living thing nobles and more beautiful. - by Einstein

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

今天他们第一次来,一个穿短裤;一个穿T-Shirt。
bapa 从印尼带来了他的报告,他以为带来了那些报告就不必再做检查了,
结果还是要花一笔钱做 ct-Angio...结果出来了。。。
三条主血管高达75% 诸塞,心门很弱了,他的心脏只剩下一条血管还可以输血給另一边。
不能再拖了,再拖随时会停此心跳,很危险。
可是,他就是不肯动手术,不愿听劝告,一直不停的说;
听人家说不必动手术也可以。。。
听人家说吃这个吃那个也可以。。。
听人家说。。。。。
就是不愿意面对要动手术的事实;
ibu 很担心他;不停问我该怎么办。。
我只能回答他,除了动手术,真的没有其他办法了。。
原来他们当然很想尽快动手术,原来又是$$$的问题。。
我不懂还能说什么来安徽她;只能无言看着他们。。。
回家的时候,下着微微小雨,看到他们两个老人家坐在一旁等车。。
好凄凉的画面哦。。。虽然这些情况都看得多了。。
可是心里还是有种....不懂怎样形容的感觉。。。
开始有点不喜欢在医院上班了。。。。

Saturday, September 17, 2011

movie No.5 with him ~ Nasi Lemak 2.0

9/17/2011. The fifth movie with him
is the day oso first time seen Iris's bf, first impression to him thought he's a quite a rude man, but actually he is a damn good manner guy, and treat her not bad..haha..
The local movie there is a bit idiout but not bad, quite a bit meaningfull..there is a sentence that the most i remembered " 不知道你是什么人,如果你现在放弃,你就是失败的人" - Like it -
and there was a song quite nice to listen it, the lyrics's meaning was like describe a lady does'nt demand so much, she juz wants simple and jux wanna the guy love her, that,s it, that is only she wants.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Charlie Chaplin - Smile (with lyrics)

Sigh !!!!

Haizzzz...Haizzz.......><
I please myself~
Please stop thinking something else..
Please focus, focus, and focus...
Please be consentrate what should focus at..
Please do remember all those word, sentence, grammar, rules of using those word..
really feel like wanna swallow all those text book's pages and my notes...
Haizz......
2 more days is the oral test, please myself that can speak fluently..
hopefully i could speak fast, fluent, and correct...

Report Movies wit him

Jux suddenly feeling like wanna report it wat movies that we've been went through together;
1st movie : Transformers 7/20/2011
2nd movie : Rise of the planet of the apes
3rd movie : Conan the Barbarian 8/30/2011
4th movie : The smurf -8 Sept 2011
So far, there are only 4 movies.....eventhough is not so much, but at least we were cherish the moments for that time~

Saturday, September 03, 2011

Mid Nitez K~

happy birthday to Swee Cheng...
Sing K seccsion from 11pm till 5am...
my throat was like became weak...
no more sounds in the nex morning...
btw, had a nice nitez with Addelyn and Swee Cheng...
wish her Luck always...

Thursday, September 01, 2011

feel my lungs like going to explosion..
cant breath smooth...
went to collapesed...
the painful of eyes like killing me...
no any medicine or drugs can cure me...

蔡健雅 - beautiful love


Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Glass or Wall

confusing....
who am i actually??? how's my real persanality actually??? wat am i ???
am i made of glass??? am i tough enough as a wall??? confusing....
i hate myself crying...i hate people crying...
sometimes im not crying, im jux...my tears was out of my control from my eyes....
i wont burst into tears in front of people eventhough front of my families & frens...
i hate seeing my tears while they burst out...i hate myself i cant control them very well...
i don wanna be the fragile glass..or am i really such as a fragile glass??
or actually im always jux pretending being tough like a wall front of people??

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Outing Day on 30/08/2011

Will be gonna start my Hari Raya Holiday for 3 days...met him up by 1pm, Hanns asked me wanna watch a movie or not, i said impossible cox today is PH, must be hardly to get the ticket, but he said he has booked it, i quite shocked that he will book ticket, coz i tot today jux had a lunch with him then go back home, tat's y never expect it..hahaha...then we shop at Pavillion-Tokyo Street which is new place at Pavillion, then we had our lunch at Cafe Takahashi...we chat and chat a lots, foods at there not bad actually, but jux quite salty...after having lunch, we still have some time, then went to Sg Wang & Low Yat for buying some stuff...during when we shopping, he has asked me couple of times that am i feel reluctant if he go to Singapore for working?? GOD, please tell me what should i answer him...im sure he knows my answer very well, should i speak out my feeling...
then during movie secction, movie is  'Conan'of Barbarian...be4 the movie, during the advertisement, i tot he was sleeping for a while, then my mind was start thinking again, my tears were like uncontrol burst it out, i dont wanna let him know that tat was my tears, he looked at me so near asked me wat happen,...
i said : 'nothing, i jux feel sleepy', then i closed my eyes till the movie starts....
then finally we finished movie, he gave a special gift which is that i always make it as kidding to him that wanna buy for that for "beng'' him...hahahaa...although its not a hammer look, but it looks cute n special design...Love it~~~

Monday, August 29, 2011

Reunion Gals Talk

29/08/2011
dinner at pavillion's Tokyo Street ( Cafe Takahashi) with Zha Bo and Kessie...
have been 10 months never seen Zha Bo since we graduate till now..
we chated a lot a lot and a lot...such as the mouth non stop talking and laughing...^^
then 8pm meet jiayi went for snow flake for our dessert..eventhough i share with kessie oso feel lik no appetite to take it, myb i was thinking of someone who didnt reply my sms..while i hv slightly dissapointed of him, he called me...^^ huhu
During the gals talk section with them, finally i told them all of my worries that between Hanns & me to them...thankz for Zha Bo for teaching me how's the way to "self consoling"..haha, kinda a bit funny ways....
by the way, i hv a nice night with they all..thz for them~~miss the moments when we were always be together~~

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Kaimano shimasho

Shopping Shoping Shopping......
yesterday. Saturday on 27 Aug 2011...
after working, shopping with Kakak Iris at Times Square..we gave ourselve a limit that oni Rm 200 including having lunch and transportation...
finally the result is.. we did have balance Rm 33..hahaha...Iris really is a super shopping woman....
we got 4 sets of shirts, 1 skirt, 1 short pants, a pair of shoes, including lunch...OMGGG,
we oni total spent Rm 167 for that....thanks for her so much...i have learnt how to be a wise consumer after knowing her...hehehe...had a great fun day with Iris on 27 Aug 2011...

say Hi to new Key

Today, now..28 August 2011, 12:24:17 pm... Key has created a new blogspot account^^
the previous account there are too a lot of unhappy posts, i don wanna to recall back my previous memories, and don wanna to review back it...
start from now on, from this moment, i want my new account there are lots of memorable & happy posts more than upset posts...(swear it to myself) hahaha^^