Glass or Wall

confusing....
who am i actually??? how's my real persanality actually??? wat am i ???
am i made of glass??? am i tough enough as a wall??? confusing....
i hate myself crying...i hate people crying...
sometimes im not crying, im jux...my tears was out of my control from my eyes....
i wont burst into tears in front of people eventhough front of my families & frens...
i hate seeing my tears while they burst out...i hate myself i cant control them very well...
i don wanna be the fragile glass..or am i really such as a fragile glass??
or actually im always jux pretending being tough like a wall front of people??

Outing Day on 30/08/2011

Will be gonna start my Hari Raya Holiday for 3 days...met him up by 1pm, Hanns asked me wanna watch a movie or not, i said impossible cox today is PH, must be hardly to get the ticket, but he said he has booked it, i quite shocked that he will book ticket, coz i tot today jux had a lunch with him then go back home, tat's y never expect it..hahaha...then we shop at Pavillion-Tokyo Street which is new place at Pavillion, then we had our lunch at Cafe Takahashi...we chat and chat a lots, foods at there not bad actually, but jux quite salty...after having lunch, we still have some time, then went to Sg Wang & Low Yat for buying some stuff...during when we shopping, he has asked me couple of times that am i feel reluctant if he go to Singapore for working?? GOD, please tell me what should i answer him...im sure he knows my answer very well, should i speak out my feeling...
then during movie secction, movie is  'Conan'of Barbarian...be4 the movie, during the advertisement, i tot he was sleeping for a while, then my mind was start thinking again, my tears were like uncontrol burst it out, i dont wanna let him know that tat was my tears, he looked at me so near asked me wat happen,...
i said : 'nothing, i jux feel sleepy', then i closed my eyes till the movie starts....
then finally we finished movie, he gave a special gift which is that i always make it as kidding to him that wanna buy for that for "beng'' him...hahahaa...although its not a hammer look, but it looks cute n special design...Love it~~~

Reunion Gals Talk

29/08/2011
dinner at pavillion's Tokyo Street ( Cafe Takahashi) with Zha Bo and Kessie...
have been 10 months never seen Zha Bo since we graduate till now..
we chated a lot a lot and a lot...such as the mouth non stop talking and laughing...^^
then 8pm meet jiayi went for snow flake for our dessert..eventhough i share with kessie oso feel lik no appetite to take it, myb i was thinking of someone who didnt reply my sms..while i hv slightly dissapointed of him, he called me...^^ huhu
During the gals talk section with them, finally i told them all of my worries that between Hanns & me to them...thankz for Zha Bo for teaching me how's the way to "self consoling"..haha, kinda a bit funny ways....
by the way, i hv a nice night with they all..thz for them~~miss the moments when we were always be together~~

Kaimano shimasho

Shopping Shoping Shopping......
yesterday. Saturday on 27 Aug 2011...
after working, shopping with Kakak Iris at Times Square..we gave ourselve a limit that oni Rm 200 including having lunch and transportation...
finally the result is.. we did have balance Rm 33..hahaha...Iris really is a super shopping woman....
we got 4 sets of shirts, 1 skirt, 1 short pants, a pair of shoes, including lunch...OMGGG,
we oni total spent Rm 167 for that....thanks for her so much...i have learnt how to be a wise consumer after knowing her...hehehe...had a great fun day with Iris on 27 Aug 2011...

say Hi to new Key

Today, now..28 August 2011, 12:24:17 pm... Key has created a new blogspot account^^
the previous account there are too a lot of unhappy posts, i don wanna to recall back my previous memories, and don wanna to review back it...
start from now on, from this moment, i want my new account there are lots of memorable & happy posts more than upset posts...(swear it to myself) hahaha^^